Saturday, March 26, 2011

Transition

I've always thought that the sole purpose of transition training was for the incoming not the outgoing; that was until today. Today we met as the outgoing Executive Council and the incoming Executive Council. All week I've been thinking about what I wanted to say to the newbies, and it made me emotional, ALL week long! The new EC was up in the offices asking questions here and there, and that definitely didn't help my emotional state. Then this morning we got up to the cabin and really started delving into things. We talked about the basics of the job but also what we wish we would have known going in and what we haven't quite finished. It's hard to explain why it was so amazing but I feel like it just washed all my crazy emotions away. I saw the eagerness in their eyes and fatigue in ours. For the first time since the thought of leaving and graduation crept up on me, it finally felt right.

Getting to reminisce about everything we've accomplished this year made it feel like all the stress, all the missed classes, all the sleepless nights, were worth it. We left SUUSA better than we found it, and we gave it all we could. As Cody said on the ride home "At the end of the day we can hang our hats knowing we did a good job."

What will I miss most you might ask? I love the look on the student's faces when they're truly enjoying themselves. I love creeping random people's pictures on the StAB facebook page and finding pictures of people at one of my activities in a album call "College Memories." I love the look on my event directors' faces when they realize the difference their work is making. I love the late nights in the offices, the pirate dice, and the gator adventures. But what I will miss the most can be summed up in one picture:


Monday, March 21, 2011

I'm not ready!!!

I was driving in the California desert on Saturday between Blythe and Vidal Junction (for those of you who know the drive, you know how bleak this is) when I had a really intense moment. I had gotten a really witty text from Michael Conrad Hunter. I was just laughing to myself and thinking about how downright excited I was to be back in Cedar after a week in El Centro. I was thinking about the AMAZING people that would be there waiting for me, and then I had the thought: "It's all gone in six weeks." I graduate six week from last Saturday and I will never live with all these people again. I've said goodbye to a lot of people as they graduated, transferred, and left on missions; but I was always still here and there were always people to keep me going. I was always a student, and I knew what was coming next. It was at this point I started hysterically crying in the car by myself. I have no plans, and as much as I would love to move to some random city in this great country and have a new adventure, I've had it so great here that I don't know if I have the courage to do that. I'm not ready!!!