Coming back to Cedar has been a bumpy transition, but there was this moment tonight-this moment where I was surrounded by people I love, looking at a perfect starry sky during a meteor shower, feeling the warmth of a fire, and listening to one of my favorite voices sing an original song-at that moment I felt more peace than I have in a long, long time.
And I knew Cedar was exactly where I was suppossed to be.
I love those moments. This made my heart warm and nostalgic.
ReplyDeleteOooookay, apparently I'm super behind on your blog (super behind=3 posts). So, here's my synopsis:
ReplyDeleteNAU: Super lame!
SLC: They wish!
Cedar: Awesome! That's where EVERYONE would ideally be!
I love those moments though where everything seems right. About 45% of the time I seriously doubt I even like children that much, and yet I've made a 20+ year commitment to two of them. WHAT WAS I THINKING!? But I remember that advice they'd always say in LDSSA firesides, "If you're not happy when you're unmarried, you won't be happy when you're married." and I have to apply that to my current situation, "If I can't be happy with kids, I wouldn't be happy without kids." .......I just realized how terrible this whole this post sounded. i'll probably come back at some future point and erase it so my kids never see I said that.
**I just realized my self-therapizing paragraph on my children had almost no tie in to your post. I should fix this and explain how it fits. But I feel like i'm already too far down the road to turn back now and make sense of it.
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